Forever, won't it?

We met for no reason, bumped into each other, we hung out for couple of times, chat days and nights, had such a good time and sweet talking. We got together for months, but because of so much refusal towards him, everthing was changed. I am curious is this the end of the story? Wondering if happily ever after really exist in real life or it does exist only in the fairytale. I'm not expect to have the happily ever after, expecting is fine, but too much will be worse. I hate having false hopes if in the end the truth will leave me speechless. I don't know how it started getting to me, but i tried so hard to convince myself this is the best way for us. But i just can't get enough to my mind if we will end by being strangers. I just want we lasts by being friend. Guess what, i'm officially missing you!
The End.

Well loves, you guys might think how pathetic my love life is. Haha. No exaggerated on this post. I am not being a drama queen or anything else. I just talk what is really on my mind and i do pour it out here, moreover, that is one of the reasons i created this page.

Gambling a lot tonight, please don't mind for my quarrelsome :p
Time almost ticks to 12, so good night.

Love,
stephanie aoerora

kiss and hug,
stephanie aoerora

Cheerless to Sobbed.

Sometimes we just have to smile, not because we're  happy,

but because we need to find an escape from the pain we're in.

Those memories

wasn't worth to be remembered,

indeed.

Second chance is enough

1. How old is the last person you kissed?
hmm
2. Who was the last person to text you before you went to bed last night?
SW.
3. Has anyone said they love you in the last week?
Yes.
4. Last person you kissed calls wanting to hang out, what do you say?
My girls, okay then.
5. Will you be in a relationship in the next couple months?
I wish i will.
6. Do you cry easily?
Mm, yes.
7. Has the last person you kissed ever made you cry?
No doubt.
8. Ever cried while you were on the phone with anyone outside your family?
Yes.
9. Are you worried about anything right now?
I am always worried about anything all the time.
10. Who was the last person you texted?
Kevin.
11. Do you wish you could take one thing back?
Yes, it's my biggest wish :(
12. Is there a guy who knows everything or almost everything about you?
My father of course! HAHA.
13. Are you mad at anyone right now?
No.
14. If you could pack your bags right now and were given a plane ticket, where do you go?
Korea.
15. What do you have pierced on you?
Only in my ears, 3 pierced.
16. Have you ever fallen asleep texting someone?
HAHA, it's my bad habits.
17. Name all of the people you have texts from in your phone?
Mother, Maggie, Jessica, Jacinda, Queena, Olivia, Jennifer, Donat, Kevin, YU, SW, AGS.
18. Have you ever given anyone more than three chances?
No and won't give it, second chance is enough.
19. Who was the last person to annoy you?
Luckily, no one do.
20. Where is the last person you kissed?
Idk for sure, lost contact!
21. Would you rather take a cruise ship or airplane to get to your destination?
Certainly the rapid one, airplane.
22. Are you trying to grow out your hair?
Yesss, especially my bangs.
23. Is your best friend in a relationship?
One of them is.
24. Do you find the show Jersey Shore ridiculous?
I love to take the piss of it.
25. Who do you talk to most on the phone?
Few days was my granny, grandsire, mom and dad <3
26. When was the last time you completely broke down?
Since 2 years ago, and it lasted until now.
27. Which friend are you most similar to?
Jessica, Queena, Vivi, Maggie, Jacinda.
28. What’s with you and the last person you kissed?
No idea.
29. What time did you wake up this morning?
11.20.
30. What things are close to you?
Blackberry, laptop, mouse, french fries, lotion, ribbon.
31. Are you excited about anything today?
Crappy day! I'm not going to watch Harry Potter alone! :(
32. Did you cry at all today?
Not yet.
33. Are you texting anyone?
Sure, everytime i am.
34. Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
My cousin, he is cute <3
35. What is the last gift someone got you?
Denise's lavender lotion.
36. Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
A lots of. My friends.
37. Do you have any plans for the weekend?
Going out with aunt and cousin for the last day at Singapore \m/
38. Is anyone on your bad side right now?
No.
39. Do you think your last ex deserves to die?
Nooooo, it should not beeeee :(
40. Are you a morning person or a night person?
Both.
41. Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?
Depends on what I'm feeling.
42. Do you like someone?
I like everyoneeee.
43.Name two people that make you laugh?
Recent was Jacinda and Donat.
44.Are they your bestfriends?
Of course.
45.What is the color of your shirt?
Red.

Cheek kiss,
stephanie aoerora

randomness

Ohmyy, I just reread some of my previous posts on my blog, and I found out some grammatical errors, aaaa shy shy very shy :( I am so sorry, I just not very well in English. Why i used to be so stupid? TT

This blog is almost a year by the way, it's unthinkable. Time ticks so fast and we will never realize it. Like you wink your eyes and there comes another day lol. Forget it, how was your days anyway? Emm, school is going to open right? I mean for the high school students, behehee, so prepare yourself to have a higher grade than before. To be frankly, I miss school, although I am keep complaining when I was still a student of Meth 3, but i really miss school! Miss the secondary high school especially the last grade :(

I don't type too much since I am not feeling very well today. Having a bad flu and it is killing me slowly. Can't breath well besides i wasted a lots of tissue, i hate flu but it always comes to me. Seems like I just stay at home today D; Okay, have a nice Thursday, loves xx

Sad Love Life

I represent her creation to my blog. She has a very sad love story. She broke up at 4th December last year, and yesterday, she welcoming December with this. ENJOY :)

Dear ex,
How are you? Are you having a good life there? I hope so. I know exactly, you will never know how I missing you here. I know you will never thinking of me there because you have a new girlfriend who are waiting for you to get back here. Anyway, do you still remember the date of 4th December? Will you remember it? Or you are just wishing to not remember that date as you are forgot what has happened in that day? I still remembered the time when we used to celebrate the 4th of December last year. We're going to the cinema. You promised me that you will never leave me alone. You promised that nothing gonna change your love for me. And you promised me that there will not be another girl anymore who can change the place of myself in your heart except me. At that time, deeply in my heart, I had already gave you all my heart. I still remembered that I'm crying that time and you wiped my tears with your hand and you hug me warmly. Meanwhile, in the other meaning of my tears, i am really happy as you will never leave me. But how's now? I felt so afraid to memorized it all, its just like a nightmare for me when i saw you with your new girlfriend at school that time, you will never know how my heart felt so bad. But i still kept smiling. My heart was just like stop beating that time. You will never knew how hurt I am when i saw your facebook status is currently in a relationship with other girl. And it's really unbelievable. My tears rolled down suddenly. 4 days latter, it would be 4th December. And I don't want to have 4th December. It ruined my December. I just wanna skip to 5th December, possible? I just can't imagine how I'm undergo that it. I just hope I can forget you soon, that is my simple ordinary wish on this December. And this is the last time for me to say I love you. I miss you. Goodbye, I will always pray for your happiness. Just that I can do for you, a simple prayer, to show that i do really love you. Thankyou for make me know what' the meaning of true love. And thankyou for take good care of me for one year. God Bless You :) I hope you know I wrote this with tears rolling down :(

By : Jessica Leman


So how's her love life? Terrible? Yes, i hope she will forget him soon same as like I do. We're just too silly for waiting something impossible. I hope we will get the best :)

Find her by clicking his name above :D

Midnight Post

hey people! how's your day huh? I'm quite bad. Grrr. As usual, monthly test is starting. *sighh. Actually i wanna share bad things to you but suddenly Jessica called me and had a non sense conference with Antonius after that joined in other calls while I'm not speaking because I'm in mute! Hope you guys got my point, what i mean was i had been hidden to hear what are they talking about. LOL. That's not my appeal. Jessica asked me to join. Haha. Both of them are so funny. Ended with hidden call, continue gossipping with Jessica and we share what are both of us feeling right now, yeah it's about him again! Another flashbacks night and superb great long conversation. And, i forgot to shut my laptop off while I'm talking on the phone, so i decided to type a lil on blog. It's rather than I'm not typing here. Well, i must sleep now. 12.57 pm. GOODNIGHT LOVE :)

NO MOOD

My Internet was so damn lame. Haven't upload all yet. Will post it tomorrow okay? Seeyou. Sorry lazy to upload it now. Someone ruin my mood. Tears fall down again for tonight. Crap! Well, night!

LAST LOVE LETTER ♥

Dear someone who ever be my soulmate,

When you came into my life, i told myself that you would be my last and never hurt me,
Now you were not my friend neither my boy. And i were deeply hurt. But i had to be strong with my heart keep yelling. I'm extremely happy when I'm with you until that day has come for us to say goodbye :( i knew it, but i refuse to believe. If only i knew you aren't good for me, i would refuse you to come into my life. I know you were happy now whether you are not with me. But here I am! Hurt, pain, sickness, hurt! How can i fix that all by myself? How can i start over? I won't be seeing you for the rest of my life! It's almost a year now, this has been the longest time and the most painful time i ever had. Every single night, reminds me when we are having a silly conversation on the phone, we are argueing, promise "something", told silly jokes and etc. I remembered that all! I promise from now on, slowly i must forget you ad i will be myself once again, i will keep my promise that will move you out from the part of me. It's time to set myself free. It's time for me to open my new life now. This is the hardest thing i will do. I do need care. I do need someone. I do need someone who can care for me and always by my side when i need someone to talk to. I need! I need the faithful guy. I must open my new life now for the right guy!

LOVE,
RARA ♥

I AM FOOL, REALLY FOOL!

Heyheyhey, I'm back now. Just had my late dinner and have my shower. So, what's today topic? Err, let's talk about HIM.

Honestly, i miss him badly : ( I'm so regret about what i haven't do for him when we are in relationship Sometimes, when the chance comes, we waste and let the chance go without realizing. I can't be a good girlfriend for him. I'm too childish for him. I'm not his type. I know that. But i can't believe if i can't never forget him till now. I don't know till when it will go on. He has his own life now, and i do. I think i am the most silly stupid fool girl. He hurt me with his "words", hurt me with his "attitude". But i still keep thinking of him. But somehow, i can't lie my heart. I still thinking of what had he did for me. I mean the good one. I always want to make me ilfeel with some of his attitude. And guess what? It can't works. I just about to think his good one. I know he will never read this and he will never ever realize that i still remember him.

Again and again :(

Uploading photos. my Internet was so damn slow -.- I don't know what must i do now. My MSN temporarily unavailable. I just just tweeting all the way. See, how bored i am! Anyway, i"m listening to "kiss the rain" song many times. It's my blogs song. And also that's make me remember to him. Missing you badly. Don't you know it? It's almost a year and i still can't forget you. I know you doesn't read this, but let me describe my feeling. : ( When can i open this heart to another guy? I do need cares, need love, and need someone to fix my broken heart, please : (

MISSING MISSING

okay. I'm back for typing. actually, today i dunno what's to type. just share about my day at school :)

this morning, i woke up at 5.30 am. felt so damn sleepy but i must woke up because of computer lab. *sigh. i woke up by my alarm. quickly jump to shower, blow my hair, and tie it half :) BAD HAIR DAY for today. my hair look like a monster. huhh! after finished lab, my friend, Vivi and I took some photo and taken by Queena. xixi. what a day :)

PAPARONS for lunch. made some silly jokes. till my skirt affected by chili sauce and forks felt down on floor so many times. can imagine rite how messy we are. HAHA. and today, English teacher asked us to made a diary which contain lesson that we got from that experience. i wrote about HIM. yes HIM! maybe you still dunno who's him, but not important for me again to said his name. i said because of him, i can knew how's to love somebody, and i'm more mature :( tears fell down when my desk mate VIVI asked me about him. i reviewed my love story with her and suddenly, my tears roll down on my cheeks dunno why :( Dear heart, please forget him :( okay enough for the sad sad ones. someday, i will tell you about him more :) remember this :

IF SOMEONE HURT YOU, BELIEVE THERE'S ANOTHER ONE WHO BETTER THAN THAT PERSON :)

anyway, these are the photos. thanks fr reading. xoxo ♥

and this salad, QUEENA VIVI and I took it all. look, how greedy we are. HAHA