Forever, won't it?

We met for no reason, bumped into each other, we hung out for couple of times, chat days and nights, had such a good time and sweet talking. We got together for months, but because of so much refusal towards him, everthing was changed. I am curious is this the end of the story? Wondering if happily ever after really exist in real life or it does exist only in the fairytale. I'm not expect to have the happily ever after, expecting is fine, but too much will be worse. I hate having false hopes if in the end the truth will leave me speechless. I don't know how it started getting to me, but i tried so hard to convince myself this is the best way for us. But i just can't get enough to my mind if we will end by being strangers. I just want we lasts by being friend. Guess what, i'm officially missing you!
The End.

Well loves, you guys might think how pathetic my love life is. Haha. No exaggerated on this post. I am not being a drama queen or anything else. I just talk what is really on my mind and i do pour it out here, moreover, that is one of the reasons i created this page.

Gambling a lot tonight, please don't mind for my quarrelsome :p
Time almost ticks to 12, so good night.

Love,
stephanie aoerora

kiss and hug,
stephanie aoerora

Midnight Post

hey people! how's your day huh? I'm quite bad. Grrr. As usual, monthly test is starting. *sighh. Actually i wanna share bad things to you but suddenly Jessica called me and had a non sense conference with Antonius after that joined in other calls while I'm not speaking because I'm in mute! Hope you guys got my point, what i mean was i had been hidden to hear what are they talking about. LOL. That's not my appeal. Jessica asked me to join. Haha. Both of them are so funny. Ended with hidden call, continue gossipping with Jessica and we share what are both of us feeling right now, yeah it's about him again! Another flashbacks night and superb great long conversation. And, i forgot to shut my laptop off while I'm talking on the phone, so i decided to type a lil on blog. It's rather than I'm not typing here. Well, i must sleep now. 12.57 pm. GOODNIGHT LOVE :)

LAST LOVE LETTER ♥

Dear someone who ever be my soulmate,

When you came into my life, i told myself that you would be my last and never hurt me,
Now you were not my friend neither my boy. And i were deeply hurt. But i had to be strong with my heart keep yelling. I'm extremely happy when I'm with you until that day has come for us to say goodbye :( i knew it, but i refuse to believe. If only i knew you aren't good for me, i would refuse you to come into my life. I know you were happy now whether you are not with me. But here I am! Hurt, pain, sickness, hurt! How can i fix that all by myself? How can i start over? I won't be seeing you for the rest of my life! It's almost a year now, this has been the longest time and the most painful time i ever had. Every single night, reminds me when we are having a silly conversation on the phone, we are argueing, promise "something", told silly jokes and etc. I remembered that all! I promise from now on, slowly i must forget you ad i will be myself once again, i will keep my promise that will move you out from the part of me. It's time to set myself free. It's time for me to open my new life now. This is the hardest thing i will do. I do need care. I do need someone. I do need someone who can care for me and always by my side when i need someone to talk to. I need! I need the faithful guy. I must open my new life now for the right guy!

LOVE,
RARA ♥

I AM FOOL, REALLY FOOL!

Heyheyhey, I'm back now. Just had my late dinner and have my shower. So, what's today topic? Err, let's talk about HIM.

Honestly, i miss him badly : ( I'm so regret about what i haven't do for him when we are in relationship Sometimes, when the chance comes, we waste and let the chance go without realizing. I can't be a good girlfriend for him. I'm too childish for him. I'm not his type. I know that. But i can't believe if i can't never forget him till now. I don't know till when it will go on. He has his own life now, and i do. I think i am the most silly stupid fool girl. He hurt me with his "words", hurt me with his "attitude". But i still keep thinking of him. But somehow, i can't lie my heart. I still thinking of what had he did for me. I mean the good one. I always want to make me ilfeel with some of his attitude. And guess what? It can't works. I just about to think his good one. I know he will never read this and he will never ever realize that i still remember him.

Again and again :(

Uploading photos. my Internet was so damn slow -.- I don't know what must i do now. My MSN temporarily unavailable. I just just tweeting all the way. See, how bored i am! Anyway, i"m listening to "kiss the rain" song many times. It's my blogs song. And also that's make me remember to him. Missing you badly. Don't you know it? It's almost a year and i still can't forget you. I know you doesn't read this, but let me describe my feeling. : ( When can i open this heart to another guy? I do need cares, need love, and need someone to fix my broken heart, please : (

MISSING MISSING

okay. I'm back for typing. actually, today i dunno what's to type. just share about my day at school :)

this morning, i woke up at 5.30 am. felt so damn sleepy but i must woke up because of computer lab. *sigh. i woke up by my alarm. quickly jump to shower, blow my hair, and tie it half :) BAD HAIR DAY for today. my hair look like a monster. huhh! after finished lab, my friend, Vivi and I took some photo and taken by Queena. xixi. what a day :)

PAPARONS for lunch. made some silly jokes. till my skirt affected by chili sauce and forks felt down on floor so many times. can imagine rite how messy we are. HAHA. and today, English teacher asked us to made a diary which contain lesson that we got from that experience. i wrote about HIM. yes HIM! maybe you still dunno who's him, but not important for me again to said his name. i said because of him, i can knew how's to love somebody, and i'm more mature :( tears fell down when my desk mate VIVI asked me about him. i reviewed my love story with her and suddenly, my tears roll down on my cheeks dunno why :( Dear heart, please forget him :( okay enough for the sad sad ones. someday, i will tell you about him more :) remember this :

IF SOMEONE HURT YOU, BELIEVE THERE'S ANOTHER ONE WHO BETTER THAN THAT PERSON :)

anyway, these are the photos. thanks fr reading. xoxo ♥

and this salad, QUEENA VIVI and I took it all. look, how greedy we are. HAHA